Journal

  • Brooks

    Wadi Rum, Jordan

    6/8/2025

    If there were too many choices and not enough ideas I would say the world was full of ideas and not enough people to make choices. I wouldn’t even be here if I hadn’t died to find it. But the choices here are to find me and they have and this journal finds me and keeps me a little later than I thought. But its the best idea when you know its time. And its time. Time to write. Time not to die. Time not to make mistakes in the street.

    Too many people and not enough choices in not what I think happens here. These people the Bedouin people often think of me as …. really the guy from Chicago that stayed with our friend now that I’ve stayed with 2 or three different stories of families I think they think I’m here to stay. That is how the… people of villages and houses and times far away from them used to plant ideas into how good people are thought of. No matter where I go. My stories are good and wise and loving. Not only did I respect people but I respected their time and their wellness. I wanted to be a kid most days to play and learn how to assault each other without the father getting mad but it was a good time.

    Its starting to get close to the end of my trip Somewhere between my time here with Salam, Muhammad, and Ayed. I realize that men are not the same in the Bedouin ideas. Education is always important and most people only see ideas in men who love ideas.

    The Herod of this Journal is I told many stories about who I was and two stories that happened here that told me exactly who I was.

    Keeping the faith of my trip from Moldova to Israel To here is a story of two faiths of God and one faith of man to find God.

    I don’t have pity on myself anymore. I used to think wanting to be a Archaeologist was a good idea to my life as a Paleontologists. Now I can do both. Free and true. I can be President if I want. Who better to understand the world than those to take time to understand themselves. I think a President like this is our future.

    The story of God inside myself prays every night that I would pray to him to find my way. But I just built the greatest ark inside myself to find the rainbow of true identity.

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  • Brooks -6/9/2025

    Too tons of ideas is that the story of me and the story of what I do is not care. I stoped caring and started loving myself and thats the secret here and God gives me sercets and I love and I dream and I look at the stars and I dont forget anything. No, matter what we do. No matter what people think ive done or where Ive been I did it to understand why people exist. I think its blue and true to understand what we are. True and wonderful to realize what were not. To create the momentum of a heart in pain against the world of himself is like the greatest epic of no on ever thought. I think more about my time in my space than anyone has ever thought. My time to see people and not see people.

  • Brooks

    In a kingdom once ruled by God is the kingdom of truth of man versus a truth of things he gets to do. The kingdom of God to most is the most fragile place ive ever been. People are stories of people and im beginning to realize these people dont know anything about where their from …. perhaps thats the story of alot of people. I want to tell you …. sorry. That maybe were not supposed to find God anymore and if your family never found him maybe thats it… maybe your the last laugh. Cause I feel things have to move forward. God didnt teach us to give up or let people walk on us when were good people. I think you know the rudder of God is most people dont understand what people would do if they understood God. Too the country to my left is a good story shared across the world but its not outside the merit of the country next to it and it feels that way maybe genius explodes out word but it doesnt but maybe but it doesnt. Did you know in this country that Abraham and his family came from Ur… look it up… next to Babylon and founded God as the holiest place on Earth and in this country is the place called EDOM and im not far away heck I might actually be on the border of Edom. I know alot of things … Abraham loved his family but he left he told his mother that it was the work of God and this was the choice he made after losing his first wife she is buried I believe in Ur or near Ur and I wonder … what made these people build this place like Egypt? What made them question this and find wonder so far where people live that were with God. I can tell you his family like Moses was mixed with Egypt and those mixed and founded left and created Ur. They didnt believe in anything but God. Exiled through the Exodus. I dont feel exiled I feel truth and love and not criminal but love. Gods loves. Its all here and I wonder when I kick the sand or walk who else walked through here. …. These people I mean I couldnt go on tour to celebrate places of Israel and I dont here and I hung out the city of Jerusalem. Actually the hostel I took a break from into was right by the Dome of the Rock and this place is nothing but a church to people not of this land. A problem of people building on top of people God protects. Now …. after the 10,000 years which I feel were out of and the 2,000 of ignoring Christ. I wonder what God … oh wait. So if those people in the lands next to me who squander the chosen people of God through Iranian monies to create Russian Inventory to empower China to create Korean ideologies to remove Iran was to work then I feel that is what is going on for if you Attack Israel you are attacking the foundation of Gods will and Korea will find it and smite you for bringing them into a war that is not a war but refuge state of freeing a people. Then you need to understand the history of Korea and the history of India and why Persia became Iran and why Russia cares about inventory of Iran and why China makes a chosen court to hold council against everyone. They are on hold because Iran will die first then the everyone in a cloud of less will died in Saudia Arabia parts of Africa and even touch the very bottom of Sinai. And I came here to watch it. Cause God asked me to… so he has someone to tell him whats wrong but he knows… he doesnt need me but he does. Hes over it. We found it .. the answer this is the last forward step and the only way to get it not to become this is to remove one group of people and that is what Israel is doing.

    6/10/2025

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  • Brooks 6/11/2025

    In the fog of the morning is the suggested idea of knowing all the things going on. So today were building a wall and my funds are limited but as a chalice to stay where I am with a family and not be alone in a house where no one lives. I give them things they want. And they need this the wall that is. I’ve asked questions about what it means to own a home here. And what it means not to have a wall around a home and its about security obviously. They need the wall it makes them safe. Their family maybe from the sun, the neighbors, maybe things that would happen whatever it is, it makes them feel complete. The people maybe in the region of understanding Arab sensibility is a wall is needed seems strange to me. But maybe this is a clue to what I think is really going on. I mean histortically the engaging factors might be historically safe from raiders but they founded groups of riders and people to endure the ideas of people. Without the city present the wall is the only thing to build. You cant build a wall around a city anymore people think you lost it. But a wall around your home makes me think your guilty of damaging a wall you cant see and my studies here are done and maybe I should write as if I dont need to prelude people who happen to read my journal.

    But the seriousness is I dont reveal it till I know for sure and I know for sure the Arab people are directly connected to the Assyrian people and they are guilty of accommodating a protected city in a land that is not theirs. And suggesting it die. See in the midst of civilization. Civilization wants to keep the greatest of things and these people destroyed a Arkaddian City of Mights and Magics – and thats under the formula of Akaddian Land Ownership and who the Akaddian are and where the Akaddian come from … The Arab people destroyed a home and I believe they discovered what they believe now to find some way to gain traction to find where the world people go now. Goes after years of destruction and quality and suffrage of understanding to find what home means. I believe they are seeing it as something more localized to where their from and I can tell you the story of how the Assyrians came to be but thats not why they attacked Babylon but it might … They come from the lands called the Indicus Valley and they are the subversive watchmen of the Persian dissidents that didnt go back home after they fled a land… known to us in tail as Shangri-La. And well your like wow a mythical city im sure how do people go to a mythical place that is told to be beautiful and want to leave? They wanted to be free and whatever took over their minds to move there and stay there and make it something somewhere in modern day Pakistan … wore off one day .. and a group of men vallied across the world and found Indicus Valley home and created what we call the Persian Empire … is present day Iran.

  • 6/12/2025

    Brooks

    The story is I founded a lot of things since I’ve been here, and it’s not me — it’s that’s finding character in God. It’s the understanding of me and me, but mostly the character of myself — and that character is something God loves.

    I think God loves everything, and when God thinks, God is the understanding of God — he is happy. But if you make God your understanding, He is still happy. But if you make God over your understanding, then it’s not you or God — it’s the devil.

    The story is: the world doesn’t always like people who love God — but people who love themselves. And God respects this, for this is what the Bible teaches: to love thy temple, thy spirit, and the understanding of yourself next to God. That’s the way — and that’s the greatest thing I already understood. But I had the character to understand what wasn’t God and what was God.

    I hope God knows, in me, that I love Him. And it’s character that builds us — it builds good men, and men become like gods to men — men who understand men. Or that’s what they used to say. But still, I see the character is there.

    Several years ago, I lay on the floor of my Seattle apartment and wondered if I could find the place in my heart to understand the wisest move to become me. I had made it this far — the greatest journey I’ve ever made. And the beauty of the Americas was wonderful.

    I think most people want that. They want gods to become men — but they don’t. So when men decide to become God — is that righteous? Based on the Bible… no.

    So what do men do? You look for answers to impress God.
    And that’s what I did.

    I lay there and asked:
    What is this?
    What is that?
    And what does love have to do with life, if love doesn’t see the person that needs to see the love of the other person?
    In other ideas, it makes the world turn.

    I understand it as I feel love —
    But you have no love. What does that mean?

    How can one person love another, and the other person have no feelings?
    And I figured it out.

    I lay there and figured it out.

    Out of needs of love, I figured out what I missed as a person:
    Self-love.

    And that’s why I feel mighty across the world —
    Because then, my world can be founded to become who I need to be.
    And that’s the greatest way to realize that something does work —
    That life doesn’t give up on people.
    And love is the greatest truth.

    And in that truth,
    The world became something more —
    A place to understand the honor of how God sees people:
    Well…
    And not well.

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  • 6/13/2025 – Brooks

    Greatest truth is that the understanding is that the understanding here each day is still marked with a a average look, and the average look of the summer can be be nice — but since spending that whole year in the desert and being outside most of the time and enjoying the weather, I feel the most intelligent thing is just being somewhere and writing and working on my goals to help decree the future I set forth. So I’ve been working on videos and playing with AI and doing alot of novice work, but the actual work has been the research into the people here, and most of that is done — but there is always something im curious about.